Si quieres leer este post hazlo, si no vas a decir nada positivo, no lo hagas.
Perdon si en estos ultimos meses no e pubicado mis dibujos ultimamente. Eh estado sumamente estresado y con suerte los e estado publicando egoistamente en mi cuenta de Twitter.
Mi estres se resume en dos puntos: mi trabajo de pastelero es sumante estresante.
Y dos. Por este hobbie de dibujante. Para explicarles mejor: E estado suamamrente estresado de a pricipios de año por realizar que no soy un artista profecional popular que puede dejar su "legado en la Internet y es muy reconocido" como siempre e estado faltaseando. Fue una verdad bastante dolorosa que aun sigo supedando. Lo peor fue, que tenia ataques de ira, celos y rencor por muchos artistas que aprecio. Muchos podian desde hacer un buen dibujo y ser la tendencia del mes hatsa la gente que era tendencia por "dibuja tu oc usando esto". y todos le dibujaban. Y yo queria ser parte de eso. No tantopor los mies de dibujos gratis. Si no mas bien por orgullo de que mucha gente dibuja lo que les pida que hagan. Obtuve un par de dibujos en el año entre amigos, y los aprecio mucho.
Tambien fue que lo de las tendednica artistica los malinterpretaba como request. Habian demaciados y me costo mucho organizar por cual empezar primero. Y a final de año no hize casi ninguno por sobrepensar en como dibujar, y no se si aun pueda hacerlos porque ya casi nadie los mensionan. Eran outifit buenos que nunca se me habian ocurrido dibujar. Asi que tendre que ver que hacer al respecto.
Lo otro es, si se preguntan cuando volvere a dibujar request. Quizas sea a finales del 2022 o principios del 2023. La verdad es que me estresa mucho la sobrecarga de arte, se que no lo hacen en mala intencion, que aprecian mucho mi arte aunque no esta a nivel profecional y es solo un hobbie cuando tengo tiempo y estoy en calma. Pero la verdad es que hay veces en que no se puede y no quiero decepcionarlos si me tomo años en hacerles un dibujo que les prometi hacer con e pensamiento "de que me dejen tranquilo con mis propios asuntos". Asi que los request estaran cerraron por un tiempo indefinido. no porque sea egoista o cerrado de mente, es mas por salud mental principalmente, siempre fue asi, le comente esto a mi familia, no pense que me iban a entender, y me entenierona la perfecccion. Me dijeron que todo esto es solo un hobbie para desestresarme, que nadie me esta pagando y que si fuese un artista popualr, estaria aun mas estresado por el tdoble de pedidos que me harian. E estado pensadno en hacer commiciones por $15 dolares ms que nada para que los request se "frenen un poco". Pero eso o vere mas adeante.
Saludos, que tengan un feliz año nuevo 2022 lleno de positividad y cosas buenas, sigan dibujando sin importar sus niveles artisticos y traten muy bien a sus artistas favoritos.
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If you want to read this post do it, if it is not going to say anything positive, do not do it.
Sorry if I haven't published my drawings lately. I've been extremely stressed and hopefully I've been selfishly posting them on my Twitter account.
My stress can be summed up in two points: my job as a pastry chef is extremely stressful.
And two. For this hobby of drawing. To explain better: I have been stressed out earlier in the year for realizing that I am not a popular professional artist who can leave his "legacy on the Internet and is well recognized" as always has been lacking. It was a very painful truth that I am still overcoming. The worst thing was, that I had fits of anger, jealousy and resentment for many artists that I appreciate. Many could from making a good drawing and being the trend of the month to people who were trending for "draw your eye using this". and they all drew him. And I wanted to be a part of that. Not so much for the harvest of free drawings. If not rather out of pride that many people draw what you ask them to do. I got a couple of drawings in the year from friends, and I really appreciate them.
It was also that the artistic trends were misinterpreting them as request. They had too many and it cost me a lot to organize where to start first. And at the end of the year I didn't do almost any of them because I over-thought about how to draw, and I don't know if I can still do them because almost nobody mentions them anymore. They were good outifit that had never occurred to me to draw. So I'll have to see what to do about it.
The other thing is, if you're wondering when I'll redraw request. Maybe it's late 2022 or early 2023. The truth is that the overload of art stresses me a lot, I know they don't do it with bad intentions, that they appreciate my art a lot even though it's not at a professional level and it's just a hobby when I have time and I am calm. But the truth is that there are times when you can't and I don't want to disappoint you if it took me years to make a drawing that I promised to do with the thought "to leave me alone with my own affairs." So the requests will be closed indefinitely. not because I'm selfish or closed-minded, it's more for mental health mainly, it was always like that, I mentioned this to my family, I didn't think they were going to understand me, and they understood me perfectly. They told me that all this is just a hobby to de-stress me, that nobody is paying me and that if I were a popular artist, I would be even more stressed by the double requests that would be made. I've been thinking of doing commissions for $ 15 more than anything to get requests to "slow down a bit." But that or I'll see more ahead.